Hmm...kira-kira menurut pembaca ada gak perbedaannya antara gaya hidup dengan hidup gaya?? Sekarang ini, masyarakat Indonesia ini termasuk kategori mana yah? Gaya hidup atau hidup gaya?? Kalo menurut pendapat penulis, masyarakat kita ini termasuk golongan yang terakhir yaitu golongan hidup gaya. Bila berdasarkan sudut pandang penulis *maap maap aja dah kalo ternyata penulis salah memandang neeh* gaya hidup atau istilah Englishnya lifestyle itu lebih merujuk kepada keseluruhan hidup yang dijalani oleh seseorang yang menganut gaya hidup tertentu. Misalnya bila seseorang mempunyai lifestyle punk *ini juga tahu setelah berdiskusi dengan Mas Yudhi yg skripsinya mengenai dunia punk* maka gak cuma dandannya aja yg ala anak punk, tapi yang terpenting adalah semangatnya yaitu semangat anti kapitalisme. Mereka yang mempunyai lifestyle punk akan sesedikit mungkin mengandalkan duit orangtua, lebih mengusahakan segala sesuatunya secara indie seperti ketika mereka ingin bikin album atau mengadakan konser yah dananya diperoleh dengan cara berjualan, ngamen, kerja ‘ngebabu’ atau apapun daripada meminta dana dari sponsor. Hal tersebut juga akan tercermin dari penampilan mereka yang menggunakan baju, sepatu atau aksesoris buatan sendiri ataupun buatan tangan dan bukannya buatan pabrik apalagi bermerk.
Nah sekarang ini penulis perhatikan semakin banyak tuh anak-anak yang bergaya seperti anak punk, terutama di perempatan, pertigaan maupun perduaan *ada gak yah??* lampu merah, meski menurut penulis mereka itu bukan menjalani gaya hidup punk melainkan hidup bergaya punk. Bedanya dimana?? Well, mereka itu hanya mementingkan gaya berpakaian saja yang terlihat seperti anak punk, tak jarang pakaian itu mereka beli dengan duit dari ortu dan bukan hasil jerih payah sendiri, penulis tau darimana?? Soalnya hal tersebut terlihat dari kualitas pakaiannya, meski item tapi bermerk *yang tidak bisa penulis sebutkan biar gak jadi ajang promosi*. Ada pula penulis pernah liat dandanannya punk abis tapi tanggannya gak bisa lepas dari HP...waduh mana semangat anti kapitalismenya?? Udah gitu semakin banyak pula anak-anak muda usia SMPan yang *ini baru kemungkinan lhooo...* baru setiap malam minggu jadi anak punk untuk ngamen, nongkrong, ngerokok trus minum-minum. Memang tidak ada batasan usia siy kapan seseorang mempunyai gaya hidup, namun menurut penulis usia-usia remaja masih terbilang dini bagi seseorang untuk bisa memiliki atau mengklaim mempunyai gaya hidup tertentu, wong mereka aja masih bingung siapa diri mereka. Makanya biasanya kalo remaja-remaja itu lebih mengarah pada peer groupnya, bila peer groupnya banyakan bergaya punk maka mereka juga ngikut meski tidak tahu filosofinya apa dan bagaimana.
Semakin penulis perhatikan maka semakin banyak yang penulis lihat dan sadari bahwa masyarakat kita telah berkembang menjadi masyarakat yang hidupnya ditujukan untuk bergaya. Gak ada yang salah siy dengan hidup bergaya *bahkan pacar penulis pun sering menggeleng-gelengkan kepala kalo penulis banci kamera*, namun bila sudah mengarah pada hidup bergaya konsumtif maka kita perlu mengerem dan meninjau kembali tentang filosofi hidup kita. Sudah menjadi rahasia umum bahwa masyarakat mengatakan tidak memiliki uang untuk bayar SPP anaknya, tidak punya uang untuk makan, tidak bisa beli buku pelajaran namun untuk membeli pulsa masih bisa bahkan menjadi prioritas utama. Salah satunya yang lagi hot-hotnya yah BlackBerry ini. Padahal BB sudah ada dari tahun 2004 cuma sekarang lagi booming-boomingnya sehinga semakin banyak yang penulis lihat menggunakan BB, bahkan dalam waktu 3 jam saja sepanjang penulis mengamati sinetron-sinetron sudah lebih dari 10 orang pemain sinetron yang menggunakan BB tersebut. Wah makin deh masyarakat kita berlomba-lomba untuk menggunakan BB, padahal BBnya cuma digunakan untuk nelepon, sms, ym, fb, ataupun cek imel yang sebenarnya masih ada HP lain yang juga punya fitur-fitur tersebut. Well, kalo penulis siy tipe orang yang tidak suka menyatukan berbagai macam fungsi tersebut ke dalam satu alat. Pertama penulis jadi tambah bingung dengan fitur-fiturnya *maklum gaptek* dan juga kalo rusak maka fungsi yang lainnya juga turut tidak bisa digunakan kan. Penulis seh tipe konvensional *ato -kembali lagi- gaptek*, jadinya HP yah buat nelepon ama sms aja, kalo ngenet pake HP penulis siy ngerasanya kurang puas secara layarnya kecil buener...enakan di komputer atau laptop kan kelihatan lebih besar dan jelas hehehehehe...
Bagi penulis hidup gaya itu pasti akan menjadi hidup konsumtif. Biasanya para hidup gaya-ers itu seringkali akan mengikuti apa yang lagi heboh di masyarakat, bila heboh BB ikut punya, heboh baju model ini beli juga, booming ini maka beli itu walo terkadang tidak dibutuhkan dan masih belon ngerti kegunaannya. Yang penting punya dulu deh, gitu kali yah... Contohnya daripada iPod penulis lebih memilih Zen Stone, pertama karena Zen lebih murah *tetep jurus itung-itungan Cinanya dikeluarkan* trus Zen juga lebih kecil sehingga praktis untuk disimpan, masuk saku apapun bisa. Lha ngapain beli iPod yg lebih besar dan mahal kalo penulis cuma menggunakannya untuk mendengarkan musik aja?? Toh pake Zen juga lagunya kedengaran kan, kapasitasnya juga cukup besar *nilai plus lainnya Zennya dibeliin oleh pacar penulis huehehehehehehehe* makanya meski yang laen pada sibuk berburu iPod penulis siy tetap setia dengan Zen ampe tuh Zen dah gak bisa lagi mengeluarkan suara. Biasanya kalo untuk urusan perangkat gadget penulis gak akan pusing dengan keluaran-keluaran baru yang lebih canggih dan lagi booming, lha kalo yang keluaran lama masih bisa berfungsi dengan baik ngapain ganti?? Toh fungsinya juga sama cuma tampilan atau merknya aja kan yang berbeda dan lagi menjamur di masyarakat.
Penulis tidak akan munafik karena penulis mengakui bahwa penulis juga konsumtif, terutama yang menjadi trio guilty pleasure para wanita yaitu clothes, bags and shoes dan ditambah satu lagi yaitu buku. Penulis sering koq membeli barang-barang tersebut, namun bukan untuk bergaya atau mengikuti mode/trend, karena penulis tidak mengHARUSkan punya barang-barang tersebut. Penulis beli karena penulis menyukainya dan memang kalo lagi gak punya uang yah gak usah beli *meski mupeng setengah mati kayak sekarang mupeng banget pengen beli novel Breaking Dawn*. Malah penulis paling males kalo beli barang-barang yang lagi trend secara yang pake kan jadi banyak dan pasaran, makanya biasanya kalo udah gak heboh dan ngetrend lagi baru penulis melirik-lirik dan mengincar untuk membeli. Sekarang ini penulis sih lagi berusaha menjadi lebih modis dalam berpakaian, dalam kamus penulis modis itu bukan semata berarti mengikuti apa yang sedang menjadi mode lho. Kalo penulis siy menganggap modis itu berpakaian sesuai dengan tubuh kita, jadinya penulis mengerti kalo dengan bentuk tubuh seperti ini penulis cocoknya berpakaian model apa dan seharusnya menghindari model apa *thanks untuk ilmu dari Regina and Vira*, namun tetap aja karena menganut gaya hidup *catet gaya hidup lho bukan hidup bergaya* cuek maka penulis tidak pernah terlalu memusingkan memadu-padankan terutama warna. Sering banget tuh penulis ditegur oleh temen-temen karena bajunya warna apa, sepatunya warna apa, tasnya warna apa, kalungnya warna apa gak nyambung semua huahahahahahahahahaha...*itu mah namanya norak kali yaa...* lah meski pake baju warna hijau tapi kalo penulis lagi pengen pake tas yang warnanya merah, sepatunya putih so what gitu lhhooo...
Okey marilah kembali ke topik gaya hidup dengan hidup gaya, sekarang ini gaya hidup dengan hidup gaya semakin rancu dan semakin dianggap sama. Padahal dapat dibedakan dengan gamblang dan mudah, gaya hidup menyangkut filosofi sedangkan hidup gaya menyangkut gengsi, hal tersebut tidak hanya terlihat dalam dunia fashion saja melainkan sudah merambah ke berbagai aspek dalam kehidupan manusia. Dalam dunia pendidikan semakin banyak saja yang lebih mementingkan hidup gaya *alias mengutamakan gengsi*, berlomba-lomba memasukkan anak-anak mereka ke sekolah internasional, bilingual, multilingual, day care, playgroup dan seterusnya dengan alasan biar anak pintar dan gak ketinggalan jaman. Menurut penulis mah gak ada tuh hubungannya, kalo emang menganut gaya hidup dimana pendidikan penting kan gak harus memasukan anak ke sekolah internasional, toh masih banyak sekolah-sekolah biasa yang juga bermutu. Anak-anak balita sibuk berplay group atau ber-day care-an agar sosialisasinya baik, gak kuper, gak egois dan seterusnya, wah itu mah di rumah juga bisa kalee...lha orangtuanya kemana?? Gak ada kakek, nenek, paman, bibi, kakak, adik, sepupu, tetangga yang bisa menjadi sarana bagi anak untuk belajar hal-hal tersebut?? Anak-anak balita akan semakin lucu, pintar dan hebat bila sudah bisa berbahasa Inggris, kenapa terburu-buru mengajarkan bahasa Inggris?? Toh secara kognitif, perkembangan konsep *termasuk konsep bahasa* baru terjadi semasa anak-anak bersekolah tingkat dasar. Janganlah mengharuskan anak-anak tersebut bisa menyebutkan sesuatu dalam bahasa Inggris, biarkan saja konsep bahasa Indonesia terbentuk dengan baik dan sempurna baru diasosiasikan dengan bahasa Inggris, jangan membuat mereka bingung dengan mencampuradukan bahasa.
Yang membuat penulis miris adalah akhir-akhir ini penulis sering melihat anak-anak di bawah umur yg menenteng rokok kemana-mana, memain-mainkan rokok di tangan mereka bahkan mengebulkan asap rokok dengan gayanya yg tampak di mata penulis sebagai gaya sok dewasa…Semasa penulis SMU *ciiee…dah berapa tahun yg lalu bu…* emang banyaklah anak cowok yg nyoba-nyoba ngerokok, bahkan terkadang ada yg sudah nyoba dr SMP tapi biasanya dilakukan masih sembunyi-sembunyi, di dalam kamar, di tempat yg tidak terlihat oleh banyak orang. Sekarang ini –dengan menggunakan istilah globalisasi-, anak SD pun udah pada nyoba ngerokok atau bahkan udah jadi perokok dan mereka tidak risih merokok di depan umum!! O Em Ji!!! Inikah wajah dari sebuah gaya hidup?? Ketika anak-anak yg mungkin belum mengetahui jelas apakah maksud dan arti dari gaya hidup tetapi sudah menjalani suatu kehidupan yang bergaya?? Apakah qt ini memiliki suatu gaya hidup atau justru malah terjebak dalam suatu hidup bergaya??
Februari 21, 2009
gaya hidup atau hidup gaya??
Januari 12, 2009
my resolution in the new year
Happy new year!!! Wah nampaknya penulis dah lama banget yah gak ngepost di blog ini..dui bu qi..penulis lagi meminimalkan fungsi kerja otak siy jadinya males banget berpikir *halah! Bukannya emang dari dulu?!Huehehehehe*. Sebenarnya semenjak penulis merasakan kerja menjadi seorang psikolog pendengar masalah yang baik, biasanya selepas kerja penulis berusaha meminimalkan fungsi otak biar penulis gak stress hehehehe...Oleh sebab itu, penulis membangun kebiasaan baru sepulang kerja atau gak pas weekend yaitu dengan membaca komik atau menonton film serial. Yang dibaca atau ditonton juga yang ringan-ringan aja seperti komedi, ‘cause believe it or not sebagian permasalahan-permasalahan klien penulis dah kayak di sinetron so penulis nyari selingan yang semakin bisa membuat penulis tenggelam dalam dunia fantasi maka akan semakin baik. Kan penulis menganut prinsip yin-yang, jadinya kalo dah hampir seharian menghadapi realitas dunia yang berat maka harus diimbangi pula dengan dunia fantasi, biar seimbang dan harmonis gitu lho *pinter bener ‘ngeles’nya yah huahahahhahaha*. Emang kerja jadi seorang psikolog ups...pendengar masalah yang baik menguras tenaga yup!! Anyway, itu dah tutup buku, dah sooo last year...this is the new year!! Makanya postingan kali ini akan berbicara mengenai tahun yang baru ini, tahun 2009.
Apa yang biasanya dibuat orang pada tahun yang baru?? Yup, pasti kebanyakan orang akan membuat resolusi atau apa yang hendak dicapainya sepanjang tahun 2009 *kalo ada jawaban yang berbeda dengan jawaban penulis yah itu sih DL a.k.a Derita Lo huahahahhahaha*. Penulis sedikit banyak termasuk kedalam golongan tersebut, tapi besar bagian sedikitnya, maksudnya penulis gak terlalu memusingkan urusan resolusi tersebut. Yah mungkin hal tersebut dikarenakan penulis memang bukan tipe perencana atau orang yang suka berplanning siy. Secara penulis termasuk golongan Perception -berdasarkan MBTI- sehingga hasilnya yah jadi seperti penulis ini..deadliners *merujuk pada orang yang baru mengerjakan sesuatu menjelang detik-detik terakhir*, fleksibel *saking fleksibelnya maka harus rela gak tidur semalaman sebelum case conference (CC) RSUD Sleman kemaren*, mudah menyesuaikan diri dan menikmati hal yang tak terduga *termasuk ketika CC nya berlangsung dari jam delapan mpe jam tiga sore trus penulis dapat giliran presentasi terakhir, padahal kepala udah berat banget dan dah habis dua gelas kopi supaya otaknya tetep nyambung*. Jadinya kalo disuruh menyebutkan apa yang menjadi resolusi penulis di tahun yang baru ini mungkin gak sampai satu tangan dah kesebut semua tuh huehehehehehehe..Itu juga dah termasuk resolusi yang penulis sebut sebagai resolusi klise karena tiap tahun penulis akan membuat resolusi tersebut namun kembali ke sifat penulis yang seperti telah disebutkan sebelumnya maka hal tersebut menjadi mustahal tercapai, paling kalo tercapai yah cuma akan bertahan beberapa bulan saja gak nyampe sepanjang tahun.
Mo tahu apa aja resolusi klise penulis?? Sebenarnya mungkin gak jauh berbeda dengan beberapa resolusi yang dibuat oleh para pembaca, para wanita atau orang lain pada umumnya. Resolusi klise penulis berupa:
1. Olahraga seminggu dua kali biar kuyus
*hmm...biasanya semangat menjelang event-event tertentu terutama di tahun 2009 ini sepupu penulis ada yang mo married dan noh si Icus juga mo married pula waduh...namun resolusi ini biasanya cuman berlangsung dan bertahan selama beberapa bulan, yoga dah hampir gak pernah lagi, fitness dan renang boro-boro deh... alasannya pasti gak sempet dan kembali ke penyakit malasnya yang sudah melegenda dan mendunia itu*
2. Menabung tiap bulan biar tua nya sejahtera
*yang ini lagi jelas cuman terlaksana pada saat-saat tertentu saja, misalnya pas xin chia dan baru dapat angpao. Faktor penghambat seringkali adalah pengeluaran tak terduga dan disesuaikan dengan kebutuhan mood huahahahahhaha*
3. Punya agenda yang terisi penuh sepanjang tahun
*ini adalah resolusi yang entah mengapa paling sulit terpenuhi, gimana yah...penulis juga bingung padahal udah tiap tahun selalu beli agenda namun hanya bulan-bulan tertentu aja yang terisi biasanya awal tahun hingga Maret atau April, lalu agenda tersebut mengalami penurunan fungsi dan penulis baru teringat kembali sekitar Oktober atau November. Jadi agendanya juga mengalami summer vacation huahahahhaha. Bukannya penulis gak menyadari pentingnya agenda –terutama buat orang yang sok sibuk kayak penulis ;p- apalagi penulis adalah tipe orang yang pasang badan dulu ketika terima job (maksudnya mudah mengiyakan atau mengokekan tanpa menyadari sudah ada job sebelumnya) dan tentu saja akhirnya penulis yang kerepotan bila selama seminggu penulis dapat job tanpa henti. Secara garis besar resolusi ini berbicara supaya penulis lebih menjadi teratur, tertata dan terjadwal dengan rapi, namun hal tersebut sepertinya bertolak belakang dengan pribadi penulis yang bebas, selebor dan nyantai. Aiihhh...never ending problem nih*
4. Don’t be a last minute person
*yang satu ini juga sudah menjadi penyakit yang mendarah daging, procrastinate atau suka menunda-nunda. Herannya yang ditunda juga spesifik, gak pernah tuh penulis nunda mengembalikan film atau buku, hampir gak pernah telat juga kalo janjian atau ke pertemuan (secara penulis adalah orang yang paling sebal dan gak betah kalo disuruh nunggu) tetapi kalo dah urusan ngerjain tugas atau laporan wah wah wah itu bisa di detik terakhir baru penulis mengerjakan. Untuk orang yang belajar psikologi maka sudah semestinya penulis mengetahui kenapa penulis berbuat seperti itu, namun tetap aja penulis suka bertanya pada diri sendiri kenapa yah penulis suka bener menunda-nunda pekerjaan?!*
Penulis juga punya resolusi yang harus terpenuhi tahun ini, hanya ada satu *yah karena memang penulis tidak begitu suka membuat banyak rencana sih, kan penulis orangnya spontan ;p* yaitu: Tahun ini lulus S2 nya. Penulis sudah kebanyakan ditanya mulu nih ama emak dan engkong kapan lulusnya kayak jaman S1 dulu, udah gitu nyokap penulis juga udah ngeburu-buru supaya cepat lulus lalu lanjut ngambil S3 which is by the way I’m not gonna take it at least for now. Gilee....kuliah mulu kapan kerjanya trus mo married kapan hehehehehehe... Sebenernya rada sedih juga sih karena ini akan menjadi tahun terakhir penulis kuliah, soalnya kuliah itu lebih menyenangkan daripada kerja secara lebih banyak liburnya huehehehehehehe....trus I’m gonna miss my friends and the craziness that we share together, rasanya pasti akan berbeda ‘menggila’ dengan teman-teman kuliah jika dibandingkan ‘menggila’ dengan teman-teman kerja/kantor. Sepertinya akan ada tuntutan atau aura-aura keseriusan bila sudah bekerja sehingga pasti gak bisa pol gila-gilaannya, padahal penulis adalah pribadi yang membutuhkan ‘kegilaan’ supaya gak stuck dan yang pasti mencegah stres dan burn out. Wah koq sudah menyimpang jauh nih...anyway, just be who you are, don’t try to please every body bcoz you can’t do that all the time. Enjoy being a human with flaw and don’t strive for perfection all the time bcoz you’ll lose the meaning of life. Above all, let’s face this year with a smile, daring to dream, be optimist and stay positive. Have a great and fun year ev’ry body!!!!
Do what you can, with what you have, wherever you are.
-Theodore Roosevelt-
Desember 02, 2008
random stuff 'bout me
Friday, 11.21.08
Today was very unexpected and nevertheless was interesting in some way for me. Today was the day that I’d had my community intervention, and I choose the ICU nurses as my community. I would gave them a seminar or training or ‘psikoedukasi’ *I couldn’t quite figure yet what to name it*, anyways based on my assement with the head nurse in ICU they wanted to know about themselves or their personality. So I really felt relieved bcoz I already have the material which meant I didn’t have to make one. I didn’t have to prepare much coz I’ve been training so many people with this material, I even still remember what kind of stories that can make a better example about the material. There’s only 2 patients in the ICU, so the atmosphere and condition didn’t felt with intense and anticipation as usual when the beds was full with patient. I had to make the presentation in the nurse area, it’s the only area where they usually had their meeting and gathering and also they still can look after the patient in that area. Well, I never had this kind of presentation based on this condition, but I didn’t have so much option. They only had once a month meeting which consist of the full team, they can’t have outside meeting or in another place, I could say that it’s different than other presentation or training or seminar tha I had done before. Long story short, there was I, surrounding by 15 nurses who was paying attention with what I am saying about their personality. They had so much laughed and relaxed at that moment, and I was in the middle explaining about the difference between the type of perceiving and judging when suddenly the head nurse look at the monitor which shows the patient’s vital and heartbeat. Then the monitor started to make sound and she (the head nurse) yelled “VT, patient in bed 1 had gone VT” and as fast as bullet all the nurse quickly gathered around that patient. It’s just like the movies, like ER or Scrubs or anything that contains emergency situation in hospitals. My heart starts drumming and I’m thinking that it’s real and happening, it’s like in movies that I watched, I saw one nurse doing the CPR *although didn’t include mouth to mouth breathing, only the push on the chest part*, the other start to bring equipments, so many people doing so many things around the patient, and they also talk about the patient condition, about the heart beat, about the ‘tensi’ and the worse part was the patient start to repeat the same word over and over again. Geezz....this was one hell of presentation I had. In some ways, I felt awesome to have that kind experience which I ussually only seen in movies but in the other hand I felt panic striking me and I began to wondering how the nurses cope with this kind of situation. The kind that full with anticipation, panic, tension that could happened anytime, just like this time. After that, I still had to finished my presentation although during presentation I became fully aware with any sound that came from the monitor *even sounds that only indicating that the patients still breathe* and my heartbeat always jump when it beep. Pheewwhh....surely another interesting experience that I had during my ‘presentation experience’.
Wednesday, 11.26.08
I was driving while listening to the radio that talked about dreams. The broadcaster told about the superstition that our people have about the interpretation of dream, when your dream about this than likely something will happened to you, like when you dreaming your teeth fell off that means someone you know had or will die and so on. Okay, the truth is I didn’t believe in that kind of superstition, although I could say that I had so many weird dreams. One of them I had last night, I was dreaming one of my friends, the dreams was so vivid and seems so real so I wake up still remembering the outline about my dream and I still could feel the feeling I felt in my dream. And as the results of my dream is, I ussually end up making contact with them, by texting them, phoning them or even left message for them. In psychology there’s something that called dream analysis which part of psychoanalytic. It said that dream talked much and gave us a pretty great clue about our unconscious mind. It worked to fulfill a wish or discharge a tension by inducing an image of the desired goal. Well, sometimes I tried to analyze my dream mostly by myself and rarely with some friends and try to figure out what that dream means. The funny things is, what I dreamt mostly was other people, people that I know closely like my family or friends and sometimes people that I didn’t had much interaction with, like my classmate or coworkers. And ussually the stories in my dreams was focused around them and not me, about their life and feeling and I just happened to be around or meet or hanging out with them. So weird eh?! One of my favourite line from my favourite TV shows which is The X Files was one that said by Agent Fox Mulder. He said that “Dreams are answers to questions we haven’t yet figured out how to ask”. In some ways, I found that it’s true. For me, my dreams about other people was some way to remind me of them, remind me to ask about how they’re doing, remind me to think and care about them, remind me how I miss them or maybe they are the one who missing me ;p.
Monday, 12.01.08
Here comes the inevitable....I really need to start writing my final reports, the individual case and also the community. In a few days, I’m gonna have an exam...the last exam that I’ll be going through, after that I officially have finished my ‘Praktek Kerja Psikologi’. Hope my grades will came in good no..not only good but remarkable grades huehehehehehehe. Anyway, it’s ussually happen when I’m suppose to write down my client-reports but I end up with keep delaying it until the last moment...yeah...I’m really a bad procrastinaters. Take this time for example, I’m suppose to make a ‘dinamika psikologis’ that I got from Grafis but I keep on delaying it simply by writing this not-so-important, meaningless, another-way-to-escape, suppouse-to-be-distraction post. Oh...I am such a terrible...terribble...hopeless procrastinaters. Hell, I even had the procrastination workbook and I’m not even try to change this stupid habit!! I know this habit will get to me in one way or another, seems it’s not yet hit me hard so I doesn’t have the need or urgencies to work out this crap habit. I already try to make a planning or schedules to ‘mencicil’ my work like today I would work in Grafis, tommorrow with the observation and interview results and so on. I plan all that in my head, coz you know...I’m not kind of person that write my plan or anything on a diary or agenda. But at the end, a plan was still a plan that never happen, coz I keep on delaying and thinking that I still can do it tommorrow. Oh yes I got cursed with the still-can-do-it-tommorrow, still-had-a-plenty-of-time, it’s-okay-I’ll-do-it-tommorrow spells. No matter I try to break that spells by making me in front of my laptop, still I found my way to cheat and end up get cursed, just like this one, writing this post. Hopeless, useless, pointless, and all the –less thing you can think of. Okay, I really need to break the spells this time so I must finish up writing this post....wish me luck you guys!!! I’ll tell you if this time would make a difference, if I this time am winning from this curse spells...ganbatte!!!!
November 16, 2008
the dream job of mine
After spending almost 2 months in hospital, I began to wondering what’s excatly my work is all about. There’s so many things that sometimes makes me fed up with what I’m doing. I think I’ve burn out and to think that it’s only been 2 months makes me wondering if this is I really wanna do or is this really my dream job. At some point I think I already waking up from my dream and gosh...how reality could hit you hard and full force. I mean this is the job that I’ll always dreamt of, taking the clinician side, working with actual problems which is mostly people themselves, conduct therapy sessions, even the part that it makes me go to the wards and meet up patients. But why I seems so depressed, not excited even sometimes I wish I don’t have patients at all which in after a few minutes I will complain bcoz I get bored when there’s no patients and there’s nothing to do. Geezz...so complicated wish that I have right?? I think even God didn’t know which wish He should granted me bcoz it’s seems to change every seconds.
I don’t know what’s wrong...I mean I had a dream or wish or vision or anything you want to name it about what I want to do, what my work should be. You see when we have some session that my professor ask us to close our eyes and see what we’re going to be in like 5 or 10 years later and pictured and stored it, yeah that pictures didn’t come easily to me like my friends does, actually it doesn’t come as great as my friends had. Their pictures seems so real, detail and even well achieved I must say, for me that pictures simply picture me work in hospitals, meeting my patient in the ward or their rooms and having my clients in my own private consultant, yeah it has some details if you called details go as far as my clients sit in some comfy brown leather sofa with me also sit in that kind sofa or me meeting up my patients in their room with my white coat. Heck...my friends details goes by that he/she have sport cars with the specific brand and color, the book title that he/she gonna write, how many and in what kind of field the company that he/she will have. I’m just saying that others dreams has become so real and greater than mine, I mean they dream that they’ll become the CEO, success author, dean of some university, had a playgroup even become the humanitarian psychologist. And what I’ve dreaming of?? I dream excatly what I’ve done right now and after doing it I’ve began to wondering is this the one...
I just got so lost...so lost that even at my way to the work when I saw some tour guide with the foreign tourist, I’m thinking hey it looks fun and I get excited by thinking if I am a tourist guide, I can go to all the places, meeting the foreign people from other country, talk about how many and beautiful and richful our culture had and so on. Geez....so lost right? I mean I’m already in my field for what...like 5-6 years and I was so close to become a clinician psychologist and now I’m regreting it?? Hell... I always wanted to study psychology since I am teenager and when one of the nurse I worked with asked me why I want to study this, I just simply said that well I always wanted it. What is my problem?? I mean I liked it and still had the spirit and joy when I’m studying it, even I took the postgrad in the same major although many of my friends said don’t you get tired of studying psychology, I just feel that I didn’t get enough about it, that there’s so many things I haven’t know or learn. So at the nearly end of my education journey why I feel like I’m lost?? Heck...this is me practicing and applying what I’ve like studying..this is me doing all the knowledge I’ve been studying for almost 6 years...
Is it maybe bcoz there’s somethings that didn’t match my expecatation?? Well I can name a few things, firstly was that people keep calling me doc although I already tell them hundred times that I AM NOT A DOCTOR. I know I’m wearing the same white coat as them, I know that I’m reading the chart or status which containing informations about their health as doctors do but hey..stop calling me doc and stop asking me what’s your illness is or write you a prescription or about your medication or could you go home. I don’t know a lot about that stuff and that’s just not my jobs to do, I’m here for your truely problems which usually is about yourselves. Yeah when I go down like that...most of them blame their illness and didn’t mention at all about themselves. Sucks!!! Oh yeah by the way it also makes me uncomfrotable when I got to meet the doctors -except my psychiatrist- bcoz they think I’m the ‘ko-as’ and the ‘ko-as’ also bcoz they think I’m a doctors and when they knew I’m just a psychologist they- well just say that I’m in lower position than they are. Helloo....I’m also professional here, I also got the same years as you study medicine, oh whom I’m kidding....maybe it’s me that feel they think that way. I don’t really like to be intimidate, yet why I’m feeling like I’m being intimidate by their status as doctors. And it got me sadder bcoz what people knew and look for is doctors, not psychologist. Even though it’s clearly there’s nothing wrong physically and ussually that’s clearly a red sign that say the troubled one is the psychologically. It's really mean that psychologist hasn’t yet to been known or even common in the society, even I had to pretend to be a doctor when I went public health nursing or homevisiting some patient in the village bcoz they don’t have any idea what psychlogist is and of course what they do. Maybe that’s the one that dissapointing me, that my profession hasn’t have place in this country or even the society, that the people didn’t have the need to meet or seek my professional help like they do with the doctors. And of course how the government didn’t put my profession as professional which means that we didn’t get paid as professional.
Speaking about my professional job, although there’s some people knew what psychologist really is but sometimes they didn’t knew what excatly our job was. We are not your problemsolvers, we don’t do the magic and instant thing which mean that your problems will not vanished after your speak with us. It is you that have the power and knowledge what to do with your problems, we’re here just to help you broaden your point of view or the way you handle your problems, the rest is up to you. So if you are not succeed don’t give up so easily, let’s find another way and believe me it will take some time before it get better!! That’s just didn’t work with our people, bcoz they had become the instant people who want anything to be instant, especially their problem to be solved. They expect us to gave them something so at the end of the sessions they will expect to be better or solved. They didn’t know there is something called process, geezz....that’s the hard part of all this...to make they realize that there’s process in everything and they have to be patience along that way. So I could say my professional job with all the patient is trying not to be their problemsolvers which is not going so well bcoz they keep asking me what they should do or how’s the way to fix thing heck...even to speak with their spouse about what they want. It seems I can’t get this people to get the AHA things from their own head, which usually came by me asking them what they’re think they gonna do or how they’re gonna solve it and end up get the ‘look’ from them as if I should be the one who answering it. And even if I gave them the hint or the way to solve it as if they gonna do it bcoz they didn’t feel it’s the right way....so God help me!
Well I wouldn’t deny or overlooked that there’s some good feelings when I did this dream job of mine. Yes...there is moments when I smile and feel happy bcoz my client can get out from depression he got during my therapy session or when an old man feel blessed when I accompanied him and heard his story when others didn’t want to do. Or when a child from broken home looked up to spend time with me, and he is truelly an adorable child or when a women knew that she’s not all alone in this world and she can came to me to just cry in my shoulder and me to truelly said how proud I am of her. Yeah...just simple thing that by remembering it, makes me realize that my dream job is not about the professional status or payment or how about people expect me as their problemsolvers or the white coat. It seems I looked it the wrong way, I looked it from the materialized or physical side where the psychological or emotional side which had the answers, how helping and being there for others makes me feel, how their sincere thanks makes me feel, how their smile makes me smile also and how their eyes twinkled when they had found their way to solved problems makes me feel. It doesn’t matter if I can't help them solve their problems or I just hearing them pouring out their hearts. And now I come to realize that my dream job is about to have somewhere in my heart to be touched or to feel the moments....moments when I meet others and truely being there for them.
Oktober 23, 2008
my so called reflection of life
Every once a while, people will come to the phase where they will take a look at their life, what have they done, what have they accomplish, they reflect on their own life. Some people done it when they face the new years, some people done it when they are old or about to die, some when they reach 50 or when they got another years to add in their age. Well for me was the last part. Yes, indeed October 22 2008 puted another year in my age and turned me into 24 years old. Since I was a child, my parents always celebrate my birthday by putting a party *don’t know, maybe it’s one of the only child syndrome they’ve got* where they invited family and friends to dinner or lunch in a restaurant *yes we chinesse often celebrate in restaurant rather in our home, I notice that*. So birthday always get me excited bcoz I will get presents and gather around with my family and friends. Last year made no differences, same old same old, parents insisted to celebrate by ‘makan-makan’, gathered around, got presents and stuff. From Rwin, I got a birthday surprise when he made a candle light dinner for me, once I wonder how it’s feel to have a candle light dinner and he actually listening to what I said so then he surprised me *not sure which part, was it for he made candle light dinner or he listened to me ^^;* ,although after experiencing it I could say I would never dream again to have that, it ssoooooo nooot mee!! I could say this year is different then others before. My mood had become very blue, not cheering up, mania or excited like I used to.
Today at hospital when I accompanied my psychiatrist to the ward to meet one of our patient, I met up some family who has lost their family member less than an hour ago. Although I’m working in hospital, I’m not in the section where facing death has become common and ussual *that’s why I hate the atmosphere when I had to visit patient in IGD or ICU*. After asking one of the nurse what had happened and hearing them cry made me ‘merinding’, just not the type I would like to see on my birthday. So my mood become bluer if it possible, then I asked to my self what make this day so special than other days in year *ussually I’m type of person that believe and feel that birthday is a very special day than others*, bcoz I’m not feeling any differences than yesterday, a month ago or even tomorrow. Have I’m experiencing depress episode today?*after reading a lot of PPDGJ, I could say I’m having bipolar disorder...although it come only from my own diagnosis ;p*. Even I’m puzzled with my own self today. Today all out of many days where I’m supposed to be happy bcoz I’m always happy when it’s my birthday. But why I’m feeling otherwise, decline my parents nagging to have some celebration, not wanting to do anything other than stay at home *that’s really make Rwin surprise when I don’t want to go anywhere*.
Then I had those self talk I ussually have when something keep bugging my mind, that’s actually the beginning process which ussually end up as my writing in this blog. Before I knew it I’m reflecting my own life for the past 24 years, what I’ve done, what I’ve accomplish, what I’ve got, what I’ve set up. You know when I’m in high school I made some target for my life. Of course I’m gonna study psychology I already knew it along ago when I’m in junior school, I also wanted to study abroad outside the country probably German bcoz they gave a scholarships, I also want to take postgrad. So I told my father that I’m going to get my undergraduate at age 22, get my postgraduate at age 24, going to work for 4 years and wanted to marry at age 28. My father simply said you can’t make target like that bcoz you never know what’s going to happen along the way, he said it’s not properly right to make target based upon age. You just make target out from what do you want to have and accomplish in your life, what’s your dreaming of...so you will never feel lost when it didn’t come at some point of age. At that time, stubborn as ever I’m not agree with his thought and simply make my target based on age. As time goes by, I had come to realize what my father’d said was some kind of true. Never I imagazined that I would spent my college year in Jogja or studied at UGM, that time I already accepted in Atma Jaya Jakarta. I already lost hope that I will some day study aboard bcoz I can’t find scholarships that match my study interest (psychology), hoping that I will have my postgrad outside country. Never I imagazined that at the age 20, I would step my own foot in Europe *well technically it’s called Skandinavian although it’s still in Europe*, got scholarships to become exchange student to study psychology in Sweden. Just early before in that year, I felt my world tumbled down, I fell down and it seemed that I can’t stand up again, I fell into hole in which to get out from that hole seem impossible. I felt that my dreams are shattered to pieces, that I’ve become someone far away from I’ve wished for, I’m losing my self at that time. It’s true that God works in mysterious way, when I’m on the top and have a perfect life *according to me* He gave me hardship so I fell back and when I’m fell He gave me His Hand to help me stand up and face the world once again. That year was really been amazing year for me to experience..after I felt that world crushing down then I’ve learned it’s not so much crushed, it’s only broken and I have to pick it up and puted into one again.
Eventually when I looked back at my life, all I can do is to be amazed and grateful for what had happened. It didn’t come out as excatly as what I’ve planned. I didn’t get my bachelor’s degree at age 22, but hey I still got it although a year later. In any other way I will be very grateful bcoz of that, losing 1 year made a whole lot differences in my life. I got the scholarships to study abroad, majoring psychology that I always dream of *I never wanted to study other subjects although there’s been scholarships to go abroad*, experiencing how is it like to live in Europe, living in an apartment, being able to study psychology in perspective that different from where I’ve come, could walk home to my apartment in middle of night without being scared of robber or even ghosts, taking public transport that actually punctual to the very minuete, having a Hallowen party and made my own costume, experiencing my very own first snow, making a snowman and having a snowball fight, travelling as a backpacker to Norway, visiting so many museums, parks and of course Christmas market, having my first *hoping that wouldn’t be my last also* white Christmas, the joy and spirit of Christmas that you can feel when you heard Christmas Carol sung at the park. It’s been truely wonderful.
After that, my life had been turned. I would experience many things that I’ve never planned or wished even dreamed of. I never planned that I would have a parttime job in ‘VCD rental’, that’s just a very exciting job I’ve encountered, I met friends who are great, funny and solid and soon has become one family. We’ve taken care each other, we’ve a lot of fun together, and I learned a true meaning of teamwork with my fellow coworker. After getting my bachelor’s degree I got another experience that also fascinating...I went on Mission Trip to Medan with another of my parttime job I got. I learned that I’m cappable of many things like handling seminars, talked about what I’ve learned and shared in front of many people and of course ultimately to serve God who has been good for me, it’s just like a spiritual trip that renew my faith. Actually before that, I was faced up into two option that offered by my office, the two option would end up send me in Medan but with a different jobdesc. The first would sent me to work with some company and will hired me based on my background study, more and less as a recruitment officer. And the second on was just like I told you before, a really mission trip where the paid and stayed was not good as the first one, spent time in Church and schools, training different people with variation of ages, background even position that they held in Church or schools. Even we also went to prison or Lembaga Permasyarakatan and held an outbond with the prisioner. Clearly I’ve never imagined or dreamed about that!! By some coincidence or inevitabilly -you could say- I’d end up taking the second one and I didn’t regret that!! Of course I took my postgrad but I think I will not got my degree at age 24, bcoz I’m still working on it right now. Nevertheless, if I took it a year ago I will not end up with my friends that I know right now and I will not experience the crazy and splendid moment to live in one roof with them, even not having less troubled and stressed time in studying postgrad.
It’s clear as the blue sky that I don’t always experiencing the ‘good’ times, there’s been a downside, the turnover, the lost path. But in the end, I realized without experiencing it I would’ve become an idealistic person, a perfect human being, a person who always take a right and straight way. As my professor said that the flaw, the wrong turn, the ‘melenceng’ way which make you human and you should be happy for that bcoz it’s make your life more fun, valuable and has a meaning on it. As for me those time keep my feet on the ground. Surely just like my father said you’ll never know what will happen along the way!! I would say that my 24 years of life is just been a life that I am grateful and blessed for. Maybe I’m one step closer to my target that I made when I first took the postgrad which is to achieve ‘pendewasaan diri yang teraktualisasi’. Who knows what will happen along my way to get that....
ps. sorry for using English, maybe I've watched to many The X Files *my guilty pleasure* huahahahahahahaha.....
Oktober 07, 2008
orang yang berfungsi sepenuhnya - Model Rogers-
Seberapa sering dalam kehidupan kita, kita mendengar bahwa apa yang kita lakukan adalah salah?! Seberapa sering orang-orang disekitar kita mengomentari tingkah laku kita?! Berapa sering kita berada di tengah-tengah orang yang tidak setuju, padahal hati nurani kita mengatakan hal yang sebaliknya?! Mampukah kita mengatakan benar ketika yang lain mengatakan salah?! Mungkin tanpa kita sadari, nilai-nilai yang kita punyai bukanlah atas dasar penilaian dari diri kita sendiri, melainkah nilai-nilai yang kita peroleh dari orang lain atau nilai-nilai yang diharapkan orang lain dari diri kita.
Rogers mengembangkan suatu teori kepribadian yang menyatakan bahwa seseorang harus bersandar pada pengalamannya sendiri tentang dunia (yourself is your center of experience). Semua pemikiran dan tindakan dikembalikan lagi kepada anda. Anda bebas melakukan sesuai keinginan anda, apa yang ingin anda lakukan, bagaimana anda ingin menanggapi sesuatu. Semua pilihan anda berdasarkan nilai-nilai yang anda anut sendiri, sehingga nilai-nilai tersebut bisa dikatakan sebagai bagian dari diri anda, bukan dari apa yang orang lain harapkan dari diri anda.
Untuk mencapai pengembangan diri yang seperti ini, aktualisasi memegang peranan yang sangat penting. Aktualisasi secara fisiologis tidak mengalami hambatan yang berarti, tetapi aktualisasi secara psikologis atau yang lebih dikenal sebagai aktualisasi diri tidaklah semudah mengatakannya. Aktualisasi diri adalah proses menjadi diri sendiri dan mengembangkan sifat-sifat serta potensi psikologis yang unik. Tetapi kita seringkali menggunakan topeng agar diri kita bisa diterima oleh orang lain, oleh sebab itu self-concept memegang peranan yang sangat penting dalam proses pengembangan diri terutama pada masa kanak-kanak. Setiap anak yang mulai mengembangkan diri membutuhkan rasa penerimaan dan rasa cinta terhadap diri mereka yang sebenarnya, inilah yang dimaksud Rogers sebagai positive regard.
Self-concept yang berkembang dalam diri anak sangat dipengaruhi oleh keluarga terutama sang ibu. Bila sang ibu memberikan conditional positive regard, maka sang anak mulai kehilangan aktualisasi dirinya, karena untuk mendapatkan positive regard, sang anak harus melakukan sesuai dengan standar si ibu. Hal ini akan membawa conditions of worth pada diri sang anak, yaitu dimana sang anak akan merasa berharga atau dihargai apabila mereka bertindak dalam kondisi yang sesuai dengan keinginan orang lain untuk mereka lakukan.
Tetapi bila self-concept sang anak berkembang dari unconditional positive regard, maka sang anak mampu berkembang sesuai dengan diri dan potensi yang ada dalam dirinya. Unconditional positive regard adalah bagaimanapun tingkah laku sang anak, ia akan tetap mendapatkan positive regard. Tetapi unconditional positive regard tidak memberikan kebebasan tanpa batas kepada sang anak, orangtua tetap akan membimbing dan mengasihi anak-anak mereka walaupun anak tersebut tidak berkembang menjadi sesuai dengan keinginan mereka.
Self-actualization is a journey not a destination. Aktualisasi diri akan berlangsung terus, dan karena merupakan suatu perjalanan, maka tidak hanya akan menjadi suatu perjalanan yang mulus dan tanpa hambatan, tetapi ada kalanya akan menjadi suatu perjalanan yang sukar dan berbatu-batu. Tetapi hasil dari pengaktualisasian diri adalah suatu kepribadian yang utuh dan lepas dari pengaruh-pengaruh orang lain, tidak ada topeng yang menyelubungi diri. Tetapi orang-orang tersebut tetap menghormati individu-individu lain dan norma-norma yang sudah ada pada masyarakat.
Menurut Rogers ada 5 sifat orang berfungsi sepenuhnya:
1. Keterbukaan pada pengalaman
Orang yang sudah mencapai pengaktualisasian diri akan menganggap pengalaman sebagai hal-hal baru yang akan memperkaya hidup karena dengan pengalaman yang diperolehnya maka wawasan dalam dirinya akan bertambah, meskipun pengalaman-pengalaman tersebut tidak selalu menggembirakan.
2. Kehidupan yang eksistensial
Dengan banyaknya pengalaman-pengalaman yang diperolehnya maka orang yang sudah mengaktualisasikan dirinya akan terasa hidup, karena hidupnya dipenuhi oleh warna-warna dari pengalaman dan emosi yang dirasakan.
3. Kepercayaan terhadap organisme orang sendiri
Orang-orang yang aktualisasi diri adalah orang-orang yang percaya diri, percaya akan kemampuan dan potensi yang ada dalam dirinya. Ia akan bertindak sesuai dengan apa yang ia percayai sebagai sesuatu yang benar.
4. Bebas
Orang-orang seperti ini juga akan merasakan kebebasan untuk mengekspresikan dirinya, ia bebas untuk menjadi dirinya sendiri, bebas untuk mengatur kehidupan sesuai dengan keinginannya, meyakini bahwa masa depan tergantung pada dirinya sendiri.
5. Kreativitas
Orang-orang tersebut akan menjadi sangat kreatif karena mereka bebas untuk mengekspresikan diri mereka, mereka tidak menghiraukan apa pendapat orang atas tingkah laku mereka. Mereka akan bertindak spontan dan tidak berpura-pura.
Memang tidak salah untuk mengembangkan diri sesuai dengan keinginan kita, atau mendengarkan diri sendiri dan berpusat pada diri sendiri asalkan kita tetap menyadari status ganda kita, yaitu sebagai makhluk pribadi dan juga makhluk sosial. Sehingga dengan pengaktualisasian diri tidak menjadikan kita pribadi yang egois dan egosentris.
Disarikan dari Psikologi Pertumbuhan: Model-model Kepribadian Sehat karangan Schultz, 1991.
By: Olivia Hadiwirawan, 2002, untuk memenuhi tugas mata kuliah Kesehatan Mental.
September 25, 2008
talk about my feeling this morning
Dalam perjalanan entah mengapa penulis merasa ada yang aneh pada pagi hari ini, tidak seperti biasanya. Yang pertama kali penulis sadari adalah penulis merasa sesak napas, seakan ada yang menghimpit dada dan harus berkali-kali menarik napas panjang. Secara umum, penulis tidak punya penyakit asma, cuma terkadang sering 'bengek' saja. Yah salah satu keuntungan menjadi mahasiswa psikologi adalah kemampuan untuk introspeksi atau menilai dan merasakan apakah yang tengah terjadi dalam diri sendiri. Penulis kemudian mulai dari melihat dan merasakan sensasi-sensasi apa sajakah yang dirasakan oleh fisik penulis, setelah menyadari sensasi fisik seperti yang telah disebutkan di atas maka penulis mulai memberi nama kira-kira perasaan seperti apa yang mungkin dirasakan dengan sensasi-sensasi tersebut *kurang lebih seperti metode gestalt bagian here and now lah*. Akhirnya penulis menilai bahwa ada perasaan mangkel dan tidak semangat dalam diri penulis tepat di tengah-tengah perjalanan menuju rumah sakit. Meski penulis kurang lebih punya gambaran mengenai penyebab munculnya perasaan itu, tapi mengingat penulis sebentar lagi akan bekerja maka penulis berpikir untuk tidak mengutak-utik dulu penyebabnya melainkan lebih berfokus bagaimana caranya supaya perasaan ini tidak akan menganggu kinerja penulis. Job-des penulis yang harus berhadapan dengan banyak orang yang hendak mengkonsultasikan permasalahannya menyebabkan penulis harus bersikap profesional dimana perasaan penulis sendiri tidak akan mempengaruhi proses konseling atau pemeriksaan psikologi dengan para klien. Easy to say but very hard to conquer it.
Dahulu ketika masih di RSJ atau di PSPP penulis tidak akan terlalu memusingkan perasaan-perasaan yang penulis bawa karena biasanya dengan berinteraksi dengan teman-teman penulis maka penulis akan bisa tertawa dan semangat kembali sebelum mulai kerja. Sedangkan di rumah sakit penulis sendirian, hanya satu tim dengan satu psikiater dan satu perawat, tentu saja rasanya berbeda dengan teman sendiri dimana penulis bisa bercanda atau menggoda *damn! ternyata vitamin penulis selama ini adalah godain Elin ama Tiwi hehehehehehehehe*. Akhirnya penulis memakai metode sugesti diri untuk membangkitkan semangat dan menetralisir perasaan-perasaan down atau blue. Tentu saja sudah banyak ahli yang berkata kekuatan positive thinking, the power of word, sugesti diri dan sebangsanya untuk dapat memotivasi diri sendiri dan jujur juga penulis sering memberikan saran-saran tersebut bila ada yang berkonsultasi. Jadi penulis memakai kekuatan lagu dan musik untuk mensugesti diri dengan bernyanyi sendiri dan teriak-teriak untuk membangkitkan semangat, selintas seperti orang aneh yah huahahahahhahahaha. Kebetulan memang penulis hobi mendengarkan lagu sepanjang perjalanan, demikian pula dengan hari ini. Salah satu lagu andalan penulis dan Chibi untuk membangkitkan semangat dan motivasi adalah lagunya Five yang Keep On Movin', liriknya seperti ini,
I woke up today with this feeling
That better things are coming my way
And if the sunshine has a meaning
Telling me not to let things get in my way
When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
Keep movin' don't stop rockin'
Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a better look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
We'll keep on moving anyway
Feels like I should be screaming
Trying to get it through to my friends
Sometimes it feels like life has no meaning
But I know things will be alright in the end
When the rainy days are dying
Gotta keep on, keep on trying
All the bees and birds are flying
Never let go, gotta hold on in
Non-stop 'til the break of dawnin'
Keep movin' don't stop rockin'
Get on up when you're down
Baby, take a better look around
I know it's not much, but it's okay
We'll keep on moving anyway
ps. mizz u all guys!!! ternyata kerja praktek sendirian gak semengasyikan kerja bareng2 dan rame2 *dasar org ekstrovert ;p*.
ENFP - The "Advocate"
ENFPs are introspective, values-oriented, inspiring, social and extremely expressive. They actively send their thoughts and ideas out into the world as a way to bring attention to what they feel to be important, which often has to do with ethics and current events. ENFPs are natural advocates, attracting people to themselves and their cause with excellent people skills, warmth, energy and positivity. ENFPs are described as creative, resourceful, assertive, spontaneous, life-loving, charismatic, passionate and experimental.
